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Saturday, May 10th, 2008
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11:12 am - so its been awhile
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im bored and i decided to update. my bladder is full right now but o well what the fuck..who cares (not exactly in chronological order)
im gonna try to summarize my life since i last updated.
-i dated a girl that was 4 years older than me, for about a year
-switched my majors from pre med to marketing and now im in accounting
-found out that the my gf at the time had cheated on me by having a 3some w another couple
-found that out while i was studying for my philosophy final
-stayed w that girl just cuz i had gotten 700$ worth of christmas gifts from her and her family
-i stayed w that girl and cheated on her back and called her a whore
-summer of '07 i began to drink alot more
-unfortunately i still wasnt brew crew status
-OH YEAH AND I GOT A BABY BROTHER SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN ALL THOSE!
-pooped alot
-september came and i met another girl
-gave anal for the first time (HAHHA)
-made my first video
-realized eventually that she was a whore jst like my last gf
-stayed w her anyway cuz she was hot
-then i cheated on her w/ my ex that cheated on me
-broke up w her because the weather was nice
-i started taking diet pills
-did awesome iny my accounting classes
-still working at express
-kinda got over my obsession with jason from lagina beach/hills
-starting to get over my obsession w the hills
-realized i had an anger problem, self esteem, jealousy, self inflicted pain issues
-cried to my dad on the phone for the very first time
-went thru a terrible slump for about a couple weeks
thats all i can think of right now. im just happy that it's summer time and ill have more tiem to spend with friends and hopefully get along w my family better. i hope to get a job eventually this summer that would help me w accounting..maybe even a teller job or something so hook me up! also i turn 21 july 23rd this summer so mark that on ur calendars! as far as girls, i just want to be single for awhile..maybe when the weather starts to get shittier ill start looking again, wel not looking cuz they always find me. im looking forward to playing a lot of NHL 08 and hopefully burnout w sean.
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| Wednesday, November 14th, 2007
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8:13 pm
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im gonna try and start using this thing more, its gonna be private tho most likely
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| Monday, January 15th, 2007
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7:33 pm - shit
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im at an all time low right now...i feel like i want a date every other night...no i really do...bye
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| Monday, October 30th, 2006
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10:27 am
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im single and hating it...i hate thinking
goodbye
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| Friday, October 27th, 2006
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9:19 pm - fuck
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i dont know what to do anymore
im so confused, i dont understand the point of breaking up if nothing changes.
i guess id rather be miserable without seeing her than still hang out and be happy with her while knowing that it'll never work.
things suck
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| Thursday, October 12th, 2006
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7:56 am - ehhh
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so it came out that i dont trust her, and now she wants someone older. so thats it.
peace out.
oh and im actually not that depressed, but whatever
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| Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
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5:02 pm - i might die within the next three years
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so mother fucking fuck fuck fuck
i got in an accident more than a week ago and it turns out it was my fault..whatever its in my record...
i hav to be accident free the next three years
my dad talks to me like i dont know how to fucking drive..like i a goddamn retard
well if i get in another accident within the next three years, i'll make sure that its bad enough that i die in it..k?
fuck me in the head
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(Do Me Hard)
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| Sunday, January 1st, 2006
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2:01 am - oh man
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tonight will go down in history as one of the worst nights of my life.
i want to not exist
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| Monday, December 19th, 2005
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10:34 pm - heyoooters
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UMMMM WHOS UP FOR HOOTERS???
JACK REMINDED ME..THANKS JACK.
HOOTERS NIGHT MAYBE THE DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS???? YAY OR NAY?
WILL YOU COME?? LEMME KNOW YALL..CUZ U KNOW HOW I MISS MY FRIENDS AND SHIT
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| Saturday, December 10th, 2005
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11:38 am
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i hav 250 dollars to spend today...for christmas shit...hmmm...
work 2-7 then shop shop shop!
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(Do Me Hard)
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| Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
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4:20 pm - I AM FUCKED
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i need one more class actually..i need a 4 credit class
who wants to go christmas shopping during break...i jus gotta buy a couple things
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| Sunday, December 4th, 2005
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8:24 pm - i gotta lose weight
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im on the "self verbal abuse diet"
its supposed to go a little somethin like this:
ok so while im like eating something when im not really hungry i would say like "u stupid fucking fat ass. holy shit u just ate lunch and dinner less than a half hour ago u fucking fat mammothsaurusoppotamus. u goddamn fucking cow u can feed a whole third world nation with what u call an afternoon snack u fucking grounded blimp. ur leg fat jiggles and ur not even fucking moving..and by the way thats not normal and dont even get me started with ur mansion of a fucking gut...dipshit"
but of course it hasnt been too effective cuz its hard to say all that outloud...i jus think it.
and its hard to say that to myself when my mouths stuffed with a whole box of pizza and handful of cheesepuffs on both hands..
peace out
current music: music sounds better with you-daft punk
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(Do Me Hard)
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| Thursday, December 1st, 2005
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5:52 pm - aww what the fuck...ignore me...NO ACTUALLY READ ME~
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If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
so i realized a couple things today....
i can die tomorrow
but am i gonna "live like thers no tomorrow"? no course not cuz if i did id MOST likely end up in jail, if not, dead or badly injured.
"live life to the fullest" bullshit..too much hardwork...plus thinking about all the hardwork and ive invested into being a good student to hopefully get a good job for myself in the future, all that shit could go down the drain cuz i COULD die anyday, maybe tomorrow. so its hard cuz all these sayings are contradictory to each other. im jus bored and i got the thinkin. if i work hard now to give myself a sweet future, then im not really livin like thers no tomorrow, and that wouldnt really be living life to the fullest now would it. lifes jus plain fucking stupid. honestly, i dont think we have a purpose in this world. the gospel last sunday was something along the lines of creationism vs evolutionism. god created humans vs we all started out as plants or whatever (i dont fucking know, neandrethahls??) whatever ...anyways...the priest was talking about how god made us because we have a purpose in this world. so basically the purpose of millions is to die then..maybe? well u might be asking maybe they already done their purposes before they died? bullshit...people jus make shit up..people werent born for a fucking reason we were born cuz its science...its nature..its chemistry, biology, psychology everything-ology...but it has nothin to do with religion..god jesus or whatever. i believe in god right? yea i dom i believe in him cuz ive been taught to believe in him...im a realist. i hav no proof of the existence of this higher power. but is there proof of evolution? fuck yeaH! thers discovery channel, thers fucking museums, thers all these findings of shit, all this shit is bananas, b-a-n-a-n-a-s, not only is it bananas ut it is fo' sho', aint no doubt in this diggity shit. is there absolute fur shure proof of gods or jesus' existence? heeeeyyyyll naw! this religion shit hurts my head, but im gonna keep talking and ur gonna keep reading. so ur telling me we can find tombs, the ice man, king tut, the titanic, bones of dinosaurs (from 60 somethin million years ago), and all those old shit...(wait a minute im having a thought withim a thought here ) UNPAUSE..but we cant find jesus' corpse??? but o wait, was jesus a mortal or an immortal. people are only told to be immortal if the storymakers dont know what to do with his character. fuck. whatever...but the thing is all of the shit i said is irrelevant. no one made us, we all evolved from something into something else. and were all gonna die, and we dont hav any purpose. many young people dont rarely go to church anymore, but if u ask them if they believe in god, they'll say yes. well u might say u dont neccesarilly hav to go to church to believe in god, but thats the excuse people use not to go to church. people go to church cuz they been raised that way...sundays. (depending on religion i guess) people go to church to satisfy their parents, the people who hav taught them to love god. kids, teens go to church to satisfy their parents. kids are taught from their childhood to pray, going to church while they dont know what the hell theyre there for... (im starting to lose my train of thought) also people go to church or say they believe in god cuz if they dont theyre afraid theyre gonna die a horrible death or theyd jus feel guilty.fuck. my eyes hurt. i think people see attending church as a routine duty, that they actually get something out of it. dammit. i feel like a horrible person now..u know why? cuz im questioning god and religion and shit. of course i feel horrible cuz ive been taught that there is a god and jesus and all them guys and thats why im here today and that i should always pray. i jus see it all as pointless. of course i still go to church, of course i still do the sign of the cross before i sleep and do a litle praying, of course i still pray for my family, of course i still pray..why? cuz i was raised that way. its all propaganda, and thers very little or no truth behind it. and some may say that praying does work? jus because someone prayed to get something, someone prayed that this person wont die, someone prayed that this team will win, but the thing is, prayers hav nothin to do with the outcome! shit! its more what are the odds of me getting this, what are the odds of this person dying, what are the odds of this team winning. the odds could be one in a million and if that one in a million occurs ALLELUIAH ITS A FUCKING MIRACLE MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED!!!! actually no... its probability and statistics (taught by ms james). theres always a chance that i can get a BMW for my 19th birthday..but course i wont cuz wer poor, but if i pray for it will i get it? course not. if i prayed for my 115 year old gramma not to die tomorrow is she gonna live? maybe but shes not gonna live much longer silly willy! and things happen when its time. i remember i prayed for the red wings to win the stanley cup a few years ago, when they had hasek, but nowi realized they won not because i prayed, but cuz they were jus a sweet assed team! i prayed for the pistons to win last year but did they win? fuck no the spurs beat them. i prayed for my grampa not to die last year but he died. now i know all prayers cant be "answered" which jus proves my point that praying means nothing. its the odds, the probability, history that determines this shit. ohh gosh my fingers hurt a bit. but thats jus my thoughts....im still gonna pray, im still gonna go to church...cuz i hav no balls and too much conscience. am i a hypocrite? yea i guess so..but thats jus my thoughts, besides i havent updated in awhile.
"nothins ever promised tomorrow today"
oh yeah! and by the fucking way, JACKASS AND AMERICAS FUNNIESET HOME VIDEOS have no fucking difference. they both show people getting hurt, people doing stupid things except in one show its ok, but on the other show, they need a disclaimer in the beginning and they get sued and shit. but in americas funniest, its ok tho cuz its funny.......riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.
peace out
current mood: I GOTTA PEE
current music: heard em say-kanye/adam levine
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| Monday, November 21st, 2005
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6:10 pm - hooters night update
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first of all, im so tired and i feel so fat so i will do the following this week:
1. work out tomorrow at wayne
2. work out wednesday at wayne
3. get my ass up in the morning and jog on thursday
4. get my ass up in the morning and jog on friday
5. saturday is most likely gonna be hooters night...around 8ish...the gratiot one <<<<most likely, time is subject to change
im a blob
leave me comments tellin me how fat i am please!
current music: dont forget about us-mariah carey
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| Saturday, November 12th, 2005
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7:50 pm - i dont got any close buddies
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played pool with manning and noah last night..thanks
and worked from 10-3 and i bought some clothes!!
new pair o pants sweater, long sleeve and a button down shirt..its all good
long day tomorrow...9-11 meeting then work 1-6
then helping move shit after..
test monday..peace out life
i miss how things were over the summer
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| Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
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11:19 pm - man
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express is awesome..
they love me...
they crowded around my all famous wallet
i can be myself there meaning act gay and say gay things cuz in return the gay guys say gay things back..im very comfortable there..its fun..
im glad i got this job.
current music: Better than ezra-juicy
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| Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
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4:25 pm - gaaaah
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so my film midterm wasnt as bad as i thought it was waaay easier than i had anticipated..
today was ok
skipped lecture class cuz u know wutevs...i feel fat
i think my film class now knows my obsession with j wahl cuz i wrote j wahl as part of my name on the test and the teacher said somethin about it
im very tired
im getting weak, havent worked out in ages.
i dont eat for 10-15 hours and then i eat like a fucking pig when i get home...it sucks
so hooters night around thanksgiving maybe???? i just dont know when everyones gonna be available so thats the only thing im unsure of ya know? but yeah itd be nice to hav a '05 reunion
on the other hand, work is fun as always, they love me.
im very tired. blah,
i still hav to take my brother shopping...oh and my parents wanna move but they want to stay in warren woods district..wtf?? wutevs i guess its for my lil bro.
my moms pregnant, in case u didnt know
umm i wanna go to the movies this weekend...i hav no one to go with and i dont know my work schedule so im not really sure. im a loser...a cool one tho.
current music: i need love - LL COOl J << downlaod this!!!
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| Thursday, October 27th, 2005
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10:46 pm - NIGGER:if you dont like that word, dont read this
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well...
where do i start...hmm
havent updated in awhile, nothing really going on..been so damn busy with school and work...did too many papers
finally got a haircut..everythings ok.. stayed up past 2 AM for two nights doing stupid ass papers..
then theres today...
so im on my way home from detroit cuz i go to wayne and all and after get off on davision free way, i realize i get a flat tire.
so i pull into a gas station on davision and mound, still in detroit neighborhoods, and i see one of my rear tires has a big nail/screw thingy in my tire. so i call my dad and tell him and fortunately he was around the area cuz hes coming home from work too and he comes to the gas station to help me out.
so he gets there and we change the tire and all that, and just before we finished, thats when these niggers in a black fucking van pull up in maybe 25 feet away from us, and the nigger in the front passenger seat starts shooting me and my dad with a paintball gun. those fucking niggers. so after getting maybe 5 shots in on me n my dad, they start driving away then i start yelling at them. so they stop again and the nigger mother fucker starts shootin at us again. mother fuckers. mother fuckers. i hope those fucking niggers in that fucking van die. i hope that they fucking die a horrible death. i hope their relatives and loved ones get some terminal disease and fucking rot and fucking die. i hope those mother fuckers suffer. dumb niggers. mother fucking niggers. i hope they die soon.
the whole paintball thing wasnt anything to me. i didnt feel anything, i guess it was adrenaline or something. no pain no feeling no nothing. what kills me inside and what really upsets me is the thought of something happening to my dad. i love him. im so upset that i couldnt do anything. i cried after work. so fucking pissed that those fucking mindless niggers have a place in this world. its terrible that those fucking maggot animal mother fucking shits exist. i love my parents. i love my dad, i love my mom. do not fuck with my parents. even though my dad was ok and all, it just hurts so much to even think about what if he did get hurt. mindless fucking niggers. i wanna shoot that mother fucker in the face. i wanna shoot him one tooth at a time. mother fucker. that mother fucker. those shitheads should rot in hell. things like this make me hate people. im very upset.
im sorry for the profanity. im not a rascist, im calling those black people in the black van niggers, no one else.
and dont fuck with my family...dont fuck with anyones family.
current mood: pissed the shit off
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| Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
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10:29 am - fuckitty doo da dae
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i hav so much to do..ohm y goo dness <<<figure that out!
wooow
i gotta write a four part paper for fucking film class in which i swear i know absolutely nothing!
GOODNESS!
and hard chem test tomorrow
study study study..
they cut my hours..
bitches
i only work 15 hours this week
its aright i guess
im puttin everything on hold for now..
current music: hollaback girl
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| Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
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10:57 pm - fuck dude
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there might be a hooters night around thanksgiving, when some college ppl will be comin back
yes? no?
who would come?
too early to care?
holla at yo boi
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